UNWISHED DEADSCAPE:
INTERNAL DISORDER

CRYSTAL DRAWER

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(I started this thing since I was a child, I had no friends in real life, so I decided to create my own world and started a new life there...)
(It is thousand of times funnier, I mean, other people were kinda boring and liked the kind of stuff I hate, so why shouldn't I design friends of my own?)
(I pretend they're there, I pretend I'm there, but I'm pretty sure I'm not. It doesn't need to be real, it just need to be more interesting. I don't give a damn if people call this living a lie, but, why can't I live a wonderful lie?)
(I, I know that nothing of that does exists, but it helps me to escape from real world troubles. I know, I know I don't want to get out of there, I wouldn't want, never...)

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I discovered a place where I feel safe
sets me free always I need it
but since it's made up by crystal it frightens me if someday it will break up

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I like to be at this crystal drawer
drawing chapters, I never appear in them
I like to see the world from here
but I don't like to feel the world

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Everyone wants to be the protagonist in the main story
as if they could, as if they want, they're still pretending they can
I am the protagonist in my own story
but an observer to the world

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This is my world, this is what I control
no disagreement at all
I change this, I change that
up to thorough details
No betrayal, no harm
I would like to say that there's no lying in here

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Always feel better in my crystal drawer
No need to get out of there
I don't like to look to the outside
it's dark and I feel so scared

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Not aesthetic beauty, but doesn't need to be
Not a blossoming ideal, but doesn't need to be
Just a warm and peaceful place, that's all I need
Just an inner and hazardous creed, that's all I need
Maybe someday I'll break through the crystal